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Goals for 2019

I’ve never really made New Year’s Resolutions. I don’t necessarily intend to now – “resolve” is rather strong. Rather, I would like to use 2019 to practice two related things – moving slower, and going deeper.

Moving slower

I have an inclination to move fast and look ahead, always. Whether it’s reading through a book, watching time to the end an event, or looking ahead to the next project in school, work, or personal life, I often feel I’m rushing the now, only to get to the next and feel the same way.

Part of the rush is genuinely seeing that there is so much that I don’t know, and not all that much time to do much about it. But, part of it is just trying to speed up that experience so that I can claim to have had that experience – I’ve read that book, taken that class, visited that city, done that kind of work, etc.

Moving fast isn’t necessarily bad, but often I’m moving fast for the wrong reasons.

Going deeper

A large part of my identity lies in being recognized as being “smart”, largely as recognized by other people. I’m working on that, but it’s a reality about who I’ve been and who I am.

A simple way of maintaining a perceived state of being “smarter” than others is simply knowing more. In a shallow way, this can be easy to achieve – simply try to learn a little about a lot. While there’s value in breadth of knowledge, and there’s certainly an authentic part of myself that truly likes learning the new & novel, it’s also a bit of a cheat. For example, if person A knows twice as much as person B about nine out of ten subjects, but person B knows 100x more than person A on that one subject, who is “smarter”?

I don’t think there’s an answer, but it illustrates a potential lack of authenticity when it comes to measuring (myself) as being smarter just because I know about a lot of different things.

Next steps

Ideas are good, and concrete next steps are helpful for actual progress. So, a few ideas for moving slower and going deeper: